Our Slow Car Ride

It's been almost a year since I posted here. I think we got off on the wrong foot, really. I had a very specific picture in my head of what I wanted this blog to be, and it wasn't turning out that way. Instead of trying to get it on track or adapting my plan, I just lost interest and quit. I suppose it happens to the best of us (probably not the best of us, but you know what I mean).

Well, I'm back. I've decided this blog isn't really about me having something to say. About music, about life, about anything. You've read it all before, and from much better writers.

I'm going through a transitional period right now. For the first time I recognize myself as an adult, and I'm trying to figure out what that means. I'll be thirty years old next year. Contrary to what I've been told by others who have already lived it, it did not "fly by." It was slow, tedious, and painful - in the best of ways. I've learned so many hard lessons these last five or six years I don't even recognize myself anymore. I was so afraid of that happening, but now that it's here I'm not scared. I'm excited.

I'm listening to a lot of music right now. There was about a ten month period, shortly after I abandoned this blog, where I had all but stopped. I didn't buy any new records or go to any shows. My free time was spent watching TV and playing video games. In a word, I was absent. It's always like that before these transitional periods arrive. I enter this form of stasis where I just exist inside of a vanilla shell. I used to think it was depression, but I'm not so sure about that anymore. Let's call it hibernation. And right now I'm very much awake.

This blog isn't about me having anything to say. It's about me sharing the music that soundtracks my life. I don't have to comment on it or critique it. Most days I won't even explain it. It'll just be here, waiting to be heard, and if I feel like sharing a thought or a story, I will. I've got enough work to do in my life right now. I don't want to add another chore. I just want to take this time to listen, and have you listen along with me. This is our slow car ride together. Enjoy it.

Hellhole Ratrace - Girls